After all the whirlwind of events that I've gone and continue going through. I was continuously left alone to handle, settle and cancel all the wedding preparations which has been made.
I began my list by calling up my wedding gown and evening gown lady as I need to cancel my wedding gown rental and hope to see how I could settle things as I tailor-made my evening gown. As the photographer which we have booked were somehow managed by them too, I asked her to discuss with the photographer as well as I've told her my story. The restaurant cancellation was the most difficult task where I also got scolding from them and need to write in too but still couldn't get anything back. Videographer, makeup artist, canopy, caterers, hotels, church ceremony and reception cancellation was rather easy. All cancellations were done at last with most of the deposits being forfeited. I just hope i did not leave anything unattended.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Money or Family
Is money more important or is it family more important?
I have been pondering on this for just couple of hours and I've yet to find out the true and actual answer for the above.
My fiancé said to me yesterday that money is more important than family. As when you have no money, how could you be able to sustain a family.
I just felt some what not so right in what he said.
is money really so much more important than family?
isn't it that family and loved ones comes 1st in everything?
if money is so important, are we then living in this temporary world just to be rich in cash?
are our goals in life, is to be rich in cash or to be rich with love?
money can buy us many great materialistic things, but money can't buy us love, happiness, family...
when we leave this world what would we be able to take away with us? is it our great belongings or would it be our love and happiness that we have collected all the days of our life?
I have been pondering on this for just couple of hours and I've yet to find out the true and actual answer for the above.
My fiancé said to me yesterday that money is more important than family. As when you have no money, how could you be able to sustain a family.
I just felt some what not so right in what he said.
is money really so much more important than family?
isn't it that family and loved ones comes 1st in everything?
if money is so important, are we then living in this temporary world just to be rich in cash?
are our goals in life, is to be rich in cash or to be rich with love?
money can buy us many great materialistic things, but money can't buy us love, happiness, family...
when we leave this world what would we be able to take away with us? is it our great belongings or would it be our love and happiness that we have collected all the days of our life?
Monday, September 8, 2008
Sunday, September 7, 2008
i know
Dear Dear i know love can't be force and i shall not force you to love me but i will wait for your return back with me to continue our journey of life together. Dear Dear without you in my life i felt so empty and souless as you have filled up every corner of my life with colours and love for the past years.
…his things
Today I’ve decided to pack and return all his clothes and things that he had kept at my place before and after he moved in with me. It was only now that I realized the amount of things he has at my place. The whole car boot and back seat was full with his things. I just went to his place early in the morning. My brother accompanied me.
His mum opened the door for me. I said to his mum that I’m here to collect back my things and return his things and there’s was a shock look on his mum face. His mum opened his room door and woke him up even after I said there’s no need. He woke up surprise and said he has been thinking whole night and was thinking probably he has been doing things the wrong way and wants to patch things back. He even asked me not to take away my things. We had a long talk in his room but things were still hanging.
I did return all his things back to him that I've brought along in the car with me.
His mum opened the door for me. I said to his mum that I’m here to collect back my things and return his things and there’s was a shock look on his mum face. His mum opened his room door and woke him up even after I said there’s no need. He woke up surprise and said he has been thinking whole night and was thinking probably he has been doing things the wrong way and wants to patch things back. He even asked me not to take away my things. We had a long talk in his room but things were still hanging.
I did return all his things back to him that I've brought along in the car with me.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Rainy Days
Rainy days are back again and how I wish I could give my dear dear a call to drive carefully and slowly as he’s always on the road, highways and outstation. Everthing about him that I cared about still lingers in me although knowing that no matter what I do, he will never come back by myside. Sometimes I just wish I could pick up the phone and call him and chat with him just for a moment as we used to do but I just know he wouldn’t pick up my calls anymore. Dear Dear I really really miss you a lot...Dear Dear where are you…what are you doin…
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Happiest Moments with My Dear Dear
The happiest moments with my Dear Dear was when we shared everything together and most importantly was when we talked about our house - the furniture, fittings and decorations and also about our wedding preparations. All that we had mention on how we want our house to be, how we are going to decorate it is still very fresh in my mind and I will proceed to decorate the house according to what we had planned.
This house is actually bought because you wanted to have your own house first then only plan for marriage as our home is where our love is and to build our own family here. The house is finally completed and keys are ready to be hand over by the developer. Although it’s very very painful to see how this house was suppose to be initially but now it would be an empty house all I could pray is that GOD will continue to grant me perseverance. I didn’t mind to be the one that was serving the house interest and loan, waiting for my salary and ensuring the payments are made on time to avoid penalty and interest charges.
About our wedding planning and preparations even though you left me to decide and finalise all the important details on my own from our attire’s, invitation cards, itinerary for the day, guest sitting arrangements, food tasting and etc as you have ask me to decide and settle everything. Even thou little did we’ve discussed about the invitation list and the things that we wish to do for our own wedding, details into who we like to invite, the liquor to be used, who's car to be used, wedding dresses and gowns to wear, photos, photos album, our accommodations, and finally the wedding day preparations, I was still trying and doing my best in everything I could. To have everything in my small little hands was quite heavy to bear where I did come approaching you for some help but just you threw everything back into my small little hands. I was even thinking of designing and doing our own guestbook so that we can let our guests know how a lovely couple we are and how perfect is our wedding. This will the happiest moment in my life although it doesn't comes true but the sweet and lovely thoughts we had when we talked about it will always be part of me. Dear Dear, is a perfect wedding for a girl too much to ask for? I just wanted to be the happiest bride that all girls would wish to be, having a almost perfect and fairytale wedding but all these is gone the day you decided to leave me.
Dear Dear I can't forget how we love each other and how we supported each other these years similar way of how you only remembered about my temper while I was unhappy, having a tough time and stressed at my new job not wanting to continue on with it while I even shared my feelings with you. I choose to forget all the unhappy things cos I just wish to keep only the happiest moments of our lives in order for us to treasure each other like nothing else in the world could replace the things that we hold but you’ve let it to be replaced by another girl in your heart. Each person have a softer side of their own and when everything in the world fails there will be only place that you could find that would never fail you is my heart. Dear Dear my heart has always been there for you to create a shelter, protection and love you as all these is what I only wish to do for the rest of my life. Dear Dear no love would fail if you believe it is real and it is there. This is the wordings you’ve said to me from the 1st day you was with me from your very own point of view in love. Dear Dear you’ve taught me how to love a person truly where I wish to only love one person in my life, you made me love you so much, willing to sacrifice so much more for you and makes me realise that you’ve become a very important part of my life.
This house is actually bought because you wanted to have your own house first then only plan for marriage as our home is where our love is and to build our own family here. The house is finally completed and keys are ready to be hand over by the developer. Although it’s very very painful to see how this house was suppose to be initially but now it would be an empty house all I could pray is that GOD will continue to grant me perseverance. I didn’t mind to be the one that was serving the house interest and loan, waiting for my salary and ensuring the payments are made on time to avoid penalty and interest charges.
About our wedding planning and preparations even though you left me to decide and finalise all the important details on my own from our attire’s, invitation cards, itinerary for the day, guest sitting arrangements, food tasting and etc as you have ask me to decide and settle everything. Even thou little did we’ve discussed about the invitation list and the things that we wish to do for our own wedding, details into who we like to invite, the liquor to be used, who's car to be used, wedding dresses and gowns to wear, photos, photos album, our accommodations, and finally the wedding day preparations, I was still trying and doing my best in everything I could. To have everything in my small little hands was quite heavy to bear where I did come approaching you for some help but just you threw everything back into my small little hands. I was even thinking of designing and doing our own guestbook so that we can let our guests know how a lovely couple we are and how perfect is our wedding. This will the happiest moment in my life although it doesn't comes true but the sweet and lovely thoughts we had when we talked about it will always be part of me. Dear Dear, is a perfect wedding for a girl too much to ask for? I just wanted to be the happiest bride that all girls would wish to be, having a almost perfect and fairytale wedding but all these is gone the day you decided to leave me.
Dear Dear I can't forget how we love each other and how we supported each other these years similar way of how you only remembered about my temper while I was unhappy, having a tough time and stressed at my new job not wanting to continue on with it while I even shared my feelings with you. I choose to forget all the unhappy things cos I just wish to keep only the happiest moments of our lives in order for us to treasure each other like nothing else in the world could replace the things that we hold but you’ve let it to be replaced by another girl in your heart. Each person have a softer side of their own and when everything in the world fails there will be only place that you could find that would never fail you is my heart. Dear Dear my heart has always been there for you to create a shelter, protection and love you as all these is what I only wish to do for the rest of my life. Dear Dear no love would fail if you believe it is real and it is there. This is the wordings you’ve said to me from the 1st day you was with me from your very own point of view in love. Dear Dear you’ve taught me how to love a person truly where I wish to only love one person in my life, you made me love you so much, willing to sacrifice so much more for you and makes me realise that you’ve become a very important part of my life.
Monday, September 1, 2008
...live...life...
Live your life to the full, take every opportunity that arises because you'll have plenty of time to sleep when you are dead.
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