Thursday, October 23, 2008

quotes of quotes

Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.
- John Lenon


If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
- Mother Theresa


To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.
- Lao -Tzu


The fear of making permanent commitments can change the mutual love of husband and wife into two loves of self-two loves existing side by side, until they end in separation.
- Pope John Paul II

Monday, October 13, 2008

he made me love him

To love a person is always easy but to make a person loves you takes double the effort. My dear dear manage to make me love him wholeheartedly but is merely just the beginning of what he plans on leaving me behind. It’s really painful for me as I’ve never really love a person that deep before and I really don't know how to let him go. Although I’ve acted tough but I know I would still care about him very very very much. He said I’ve put frustrations into him but he has stab right through my heart with a dunno what....

Friday, October 10, 2008

different path...different choices

To be honest my dear dear, you’ve said earlier that the faults are all mine to bear of putting us through all these. We were both going through our trials and hurdles which if we were to take it positively we would be able to pass it triumphantly. I was put into great trials in my job where it was extremely tough for me to fulfill everything alone which used to be using 3 headcounts, getting scolding and shouting everyday with bad and hurtful words. I continued to persevere on giving myself another month of so to see how it goes, whether this would be the right job for me or not as I also know that I needed the income to pay for our housing loan and wedding. I was already bearing the finances of our house and wedding and yet I did not mutter a single word regarding this. I continued my trials and hurdles even thou I decided to leave the job and company in September but I left with great joy and happiness. I knew in my heart that this is not a job that I would want when I to have a family of my own working from early in the morning till late nights. Many were proud of me that I could sustain for quite long and learn up so quickly on both the products. I knew I’ve learned something from it but just don’t know what it is yet at that moment. It was also a trial for me when you moved into my place, day by day I was learning to accept you for who you are, your habits and practices and continuously telling myself that I’m going to marry him in 3 months time therefore it’s good practice to begin learning and understand every bits and pieces of him.

Unknowingly you were also brought into a similar trial too of different expectations and job scope in your new job and your finances too. You’ve said that you also get scolding from doctors and you also have your own work issues, this I won’t deny but how bad and rough can doctors scold or shout at you? On our relationship, to you it was all about the recent breaking points and all about my temper, my temper and my temper. The way you did it was so scary that I am completely out from your mind and thoughts and that I didn’t even exist. Our love of 3 years can be just cut off like a string upon what your best buddies say about me who don’t really know me where they only see me for about 3 times a year and to you they are more important than me so you may go ahead. You decided to choose and listen to your best buddies instead of me the girl whom you propose to, to be your wife.

Dear Dear love is not about all or what I can do to make you come back to me but it’s yours on how you evaluate our love and relationship. Our love of 3 years is the only relationship which I wish to ends well in a good marriage, grow old together, and build our own family and a home of our dreams while at that time our actual home was building after your proposal last year on my birthday. All these dreams of mine to be with you always was getting closer and closer but things that I’ve never imagine that will happen happened. You asked for a break up as you just don’t like my temper anymore.

I really wish I could hate you for what you did to me...the hurt and depression you have put me through but I failed terribly as even till today I still cry over this relationship of ours. Life will goes on as it doesn't matters now as you had chosen your own path and if I continue to be like what I am today till I die, I will accept it as GOD’s destiny for me.

"Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "PERFECT PERSON"
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be"

I am happy and proud as I did my part to be there for you when you needed me to listen, help and encourage you to become a person of who you are today and to begin a new career of what you wanted and have today but the sad part is I am already out of your life and becomes a nobody to you. I’ve given everything that I could to you but asking of nothing in return only your sincerity and to love me till we are both old and grey.

Monday, October 6, 2008

What is a promise when we don't keep it

Every time i look in the mirror i will see the deep scar on my forehead. The scar which was left behind caused by a terrible fall at a friend's condo due to rushing for my Dear Dear's parents air ticket confirmation from MATA fair promo to London. These memories will always be there and would never ever ceased.

I still remember very clearly how my Dear Dear have promised that he'll never ever leave me after me having such a bad scar on my forehead. He made a promised to me again the day when i removed my bandage and went for a head x-ray as I was constantly experiencing head pain and vomiting symptoms.

I still remember that we've promised to each other before that we will not leave each other no matter what happened and only death can do us apart. This is what we said to each other and i still remember it till now as i really know what these words truly meant. However to my dear all these words doesn't mean anything. My Dear Dear had left a huge scar on me for him to say all this and leave me just like that.

I won't be celebrating any of my birthdays anymore as last year on my birthday he proposed but this year a day after my birthday he said those hurtful words to me. It will be a scary thing to celebrate anything anymore.

Many a times when he had promised to take me somewhere or even to movies where tickets have been booked, plans would end up in a different manner. My Dear Dear can come telling me that he've booked movie tickets and come less than 5 minutes, a phone call comes asking for basketball game he will look and stare at me with his glowing eyes and i would just automatically say "It's ok. We don't go for movie. We go for your basketball game." and he will just reply his friend "OK. Deal." Whatever that he came promising me had gone behind the curtains hidden and nowhere to be found.

Promises is always a promise that needs to be kept. But fulfilling a promise is just a very subjective matter to how each individual treats or look at it. To me, whenever i've made a promised to my Dear Dear or anyone i will make sure i'll fulfill it as it will not be a promise otherwise.

Friday, October 3, 2008

truths about love

Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottomline: A person who makes me loves him/her is actually a person who loves me more than I love him/her.
If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much...just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottomline: Time will tell, If he's yours he will come back.
Two tear drops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?""I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go..."
Bottomline: Nobody will sympathise a person who constantly let chances passes by without making any efforts to salvage. We normally don't realise how important our loved and closed ones are until they left us, we'll start to reminisce which results in misery.
Love can make you happy although often times it hurts. But love is only special if you give it to which it's worth.
Bottomline: If you found someone who truly appreciates you, He/she deserves more of your love.
What if someone tells you this: I don't believe in courtship. It's just a waste of time. If I love the person, I'll tell her right away. But for you I will make an exception... just love me now and I'll court you forever...
Bottomline: Love needs time to realise, there might be love at first sight but it takes time to let one gradually discover their affection towards another, miss him/her when he/she is not around, hope to hear from he/she when the person has not written or called.
It's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge.
Bottomline: Don't give up if you face or think that you have competitors. It's always better to try, if you succeed, the reward is more than you can expect. But if you don't try or don't summon up the courage, you might lose the one you like/love forever...
The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows our flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love.
Bottomline: Love is a means of self giving and self sacrificsing, if he/she knows your flaws and is still willing to accept you, continue to like/love you as you are or even more, boy, you are lucky! This person truly deserves your love and affection.
The spaces between our fingers were created so that another person's fingers could fill them in.
Bottomline: Open your heart, let people love you, never doubt their intentions, sincerity can be felt by the heart.
When you love, it is not for you to be understood but for you To understand; not for you to take but for you to be taken; to listen not to dictate; to sacrifice and not to demand; not to count or measure but to love.