trust

how do u know u can really trust someone enough to give him/her your heart? can it be measured & quantified? or is it just a gamble, a risk one has gotta take???

Just Love..

When you love something enough, it will reveal its secrets to you. Have you ever love something deeply? some of us have and i'm sure for the things that you love many do not know about how wonderful it is...only you know about it becuase the secret was only reviewed to you :) as you go deeper and deeper....

So just love..

The measure of a man's heart is not how much his faith is, but is how much his love is. Man, as in human beings, may lack faith but even we have all faith, all wisdom, all knowledge and not love... We have nothing.

So just love..

why??

I do not know why GOD is doing this to me? I kept asking GOD why, why and why? But I've yet to find any answers. I was angry at GOD too as why is he doing this to me, why is he putting me through all these trials that so difficult to bear?

I couldn't sleep the whole night again and I just lay awake till the sun rises up again. Only my closest friends knows part of my story as i have still kept lots of things deep within my heart. Thoughts began wondering in my mind again and again. What have happened? Why a loving & lovely couple like us could end up as such? The word "miss" & "love" is too heavy for me bear that it's enough to suffocate me. I need some breathing space but i myself doesn't allow it as i have over estimate my feelings for my Dear Dear. I know saying to let go is always there but to overcome the feeling of love inside my heart for him is so difficult.

08-11-2008...

Dear Dear today is the day that we suppose to be getting married. Dear Dear on my birhtday last year you propose to me and i was very happy as we can finally spend more time together.

However, Dear Dear you said to me you want to patch back things together, but today you went to attending a friend wedding happily and left me alone at my home. Do you know how lonely and sad i was? Do you know how much i have been crying? I just felf that you didn't care about me anymore as I am just your past and this history doesn't value and mean to you anymore.

november 11, 2008

today is the day of us walking down the aisle and meeting at the altar to exchange our vows - after being engaged for more than a year, everyone attire's has been selected, made and bought, venues, caterers and photographers has been reserved and paid, relatives and friends have been informed and invited.

it was suppose to be a happy and joyous occassion, a blissful moment, a celebration of love, a fairytale story, a new prince and princess, a new star shining, a new journey...but that's all history.

someday... u will cry for me, like i cried for u. someday... u will miss me, like i missed u. someday... u will need me, like i needed u. someday... u will love me, like i loved u.

so, you may go on with all your pride and ego - just give me back my dignity. if you think that your best buddies friends knows you best, to you your best buddies are much more important than me, where they come 1st before me, you may go ahead.

my dear dear, i will remember what you said to me "...that my heart is no longer with you, and that i don't love you anymore..."

proposing to me last year on my birthday but hurting me and saying this to me 1 year later, a day after my birthday, 3 months before our wedding, you've really crushed my heart totally.

...crossroad

when you are at a crossroad like me...what would you do?

Men Are Like Waffles, Women Are Like Spaghetti

I stumbled upon it in a magazine couple of days ago...while i was in a bookshop

Men Are Like Waffles, Women Are Like Spaghetti
Just as waffles comes in boxes, men compartmentalise their thoughts and process life, one issue at a time.
Women, however, envision life to be more like a plate of noodless - every issue is linked to other issues.