Thoughts...

Our lives are like books and each day is like a page
We can’t erase what has already been written
But we can always try to make the next page better… :)

28 days later

Today marks exactly 1 month after the demise of my beloved grandma
Facing the truth again that grandma has really left this world
It has made my heart ache again
I really do miss you grandma
Shall be praying for you always


Quote to Share...

"If you don’t treasure what you have now, you will regret when it’s gone because time will never turn back!"

Mood 092609

Another hot sunny day

But it’s still a pity

As it’s never perfect

So tired… another depressed thought

Hope that there’ll be a day where the things I do can be acknowledge by everyone

But… this should be an impossible mission

Pray

In all situations where there’s nothing I do helps
I’ll pray, because I’m helpless
Often I’ll face all the problems myself alone
Often, I’ll persist till the last moment; even so, I still insist that I’ll solve it myself
Perhaps I like challenges, or perhaps my pride is too strong
I don’t want to ask people for help
Don’t wish to show that I’m weak; all these made me a little solitary
When I finally realize that I can’t make it
My last resort, is actually praying!
I wish that the invisible strength will provide me some help
Help me to go through the ordeal
Sometimes, I could really feel God’s presence; some matters were resolved later on
Sometimes I’ll complain, why am I still going in circles (no progress)
Some people say I’m persistent in insignificant matters; but I’ll say that this is my principle
Some people say I’m too confident; but I’ll say this is to challenge and a growing up process
It’s not that I can’t trust others; it’s just that I trust myself more
After all, who on earth heard of people betraying themselves?


Quote to share:

"We may not see God physically but He’s always there to guide us everyday…even we had done many wrong things in life, God always forgives us…in every problem, just pray to Him, surrender everything to God and everything will be alright… "

Life...

At times, life never seems to be the way we want it…
but we live it the best way we can…
there’s no perfect life, but we can fill it with perfect moments…

Life may not be perfect the way we wanted…
but it’s perfect because we have everything we need…
we've got family care and love and friends to help us out…

We must treasure our family, friends and the ones we love…

Treasure

Today
Exactly a week ago, with tears building up in my eyes
Was the day when I gave grandma my last kiss on her cheek and forehead
With tears rolled down on my cheek at the end

It was really sad seeing grandma suffering in pain
I prayed to God to take her back to the house of the Lord
So that grandma's suffering and pain would end

Hearing grandma last news was saddening
But I really thank God for giving my brother and myself the last opportunity to visit grandma a week before my grandma passes away

Treasure what you have
Do everything whole-heartedly
Live everyday like your last day…
As sometimes, life won’t give you a second chance
To undo something you’ve done, nor will it allow you a chance to regret!

Cold rainy night

Woken up by the sound of the raindrops from my window around 3.00am where I only went to bed 2 hours ago
As the rain got heavier, I quickly got up to close the window smaller
The sudden heavy rain just came without any signs
The sudden heavy rain disturbed my heartbeat without any warning
As I lay in bed trying to get back into sleep, my body began to feel the sudden coldnesss from the cold temperature outside I guess
Thinking to myself that this would be a nice night to sleep
Covering myself with my blanket to make myself warm
The coldness then turned me almost shivering in my bed…wondering to myself why
I wasn’t able to sleep again and was wide awake…surprisingly
The heavy heart felling came back and I laid wide awake till my alarm rang (time to get up for work)
It was still raining heavily outside therefore it made this morning an extremely cold Friday morning
This is the first time in my life I experience such an incident…not being able to sleep
As usually anyone would be able to sleep soundly during a cold rainy night
Walking into the office with no sleep at all from the previous night, carrying the heavy heart feeling which came back and I felt it heavier now
Thinking that something is probably going to happen…but I still didn’t know what
My mobile rang surprising many times this morning and the sound of my mobile made me somehow uncomfortable and worried
At around 11.00+ am, it was a text message from my Dad informing me that my Grandma has passed away this morning
I was preparing for this day to come but it still so sudden that one can’t just able to accept it at that moment of time
Stunned at that particular moment, tears began flowing down my cheeks
As I was in the office I quickly wipe it off and told myself that I cannot cry
I thought of making another trip back hometown the next day to visit my grandma as it would be a long weekend
Thinking perhaps I could spend more time with my grandma
Probably this was why I had such a heavy heart for the last couple of days
Perhaps this is the message that my Grandma would like to tell me “Good-bye my child”
Perhaps this is the message that GOD would like to send to me “I’m taking your beloved Grandma home to the house of the Lord”

Good-bye grandma and may you have peace in the house of the Lord